the walnuts that squirrels get are precious.
squirrels keep the walnuts for the winter.

im okay if you share some walnuts with other ppl.
but i want to share your walnut too.
why did you give all your walnuts to them?

mata ne..

i am a lousy person.
time for new year resolutions.

mata ne..

the way to a man heart is through his stomach (:
hahaha.

mata ne..

i feel a little disturbed..
its cz recently i see alot of fb status updates.. and i dont feel comfortable abt them.

firstly, it was a fren asking why ppl of different religions cannot be tgt.
somehow when i was first asked the qn face to face, esp after we talked abt me, and some other people..
i didnt give that person a good reply.
cz i thot i should just do away with the explanation, since i have alot of christian stuff to explain before that person can truly understand.
not to mention many questions that he will ask..
besides, keeping marriage to ppl of the same 'religion' (because i dont think christianity is a religion, but a r/s w God..) is just for christianity and muslim.. and not across every religion.
when he posted that on fb, i felt like i was subtly attacked with words.. i couldnt even bear to read the 10 comments that others posted.
cz i was afraid that il feel more upset.
why do ppl just look at this life and what we can possess in THIS life?
what about after death?
what if after death, what we get is for eternity, then 80 years of this life would be insignificant wouldnt it?
the reason why christians have to marry another christian and not be yoked with non-believers is because, firstly i believe in a God that has a higher wisdom that i do.
secondly, i believe that if i choose to disobey that higher wisdom than mine, i would be seeking trouble.
and thirdly, i believe that God has disallowed us to do that because He knows what trouble i will be in if i choose to disobey Him.
on the other hand, if i choose to obey, i believe, lastly, that He will help me in anyway that He can, and nothing will be in my way.
so why go for a path full of obstacles when God has already opened up a path that is paved nicely for me?
but then again, if that person fails to recognise the first condition, he would be blind to the 2nd, 3rd and 4th, wouldnt he?

then, i see some christian on facebook saying that she should take the fact that christmas is a pagan practice with a pinch of salt.
how deceived is she!
the truth about christmas
i think whether wanting to celebrate it or not is one thing, but being able to recognise the truth is the most important!
recognise that christmas is not the birth of Jesus!
recognise that christmas has pagan origins!
the devil has deceived the world, such that even the elite can be misled!
sigh..

my heart is heavy when i see the world like the way it is..
somehow i wish just by explaining they could understand.
dear God, please open their eyes!
i feel so tangled up.. ><

sometimes i wish Jesus would come sooner so that people would see the truth!
but by then, it also means that there will be no more turning back for them..
why are things like this? ><

mata ne..

one more week to 3rd! :O hahhaa.
so fast!

mata ne..

happy belated 2nd (:

life's been.... alright i guess.
exams are giving me a big headache, literally.
im having one right now.
but thank God that this sem only got 3 exams.
so its really not that bad.
i think.

hmm sighs.
sometimes i just want to run and hide somewhere where at least il feel good about myself.
i hate myself more than anyone out there does.
im harder on myself than anyone else is to me.

sighs.
one more paper on wed and im done for this sem.
and il walk towards facing the last school semester of my life.
no more school life for me after that.
how sad is that?
i dont want to grow up. i dont.
I DONT WANT TO GROW UP.
i dont want to go out there and face the ugly world.
i dont want to stand there and shoulder responsibilities that will weigh me down, make me age faster and hold me back.

i wonder what God has for me in the future.
i wonder what God wants me to do.
i wonder what God has in store for me.

i still hate myself tho.
sighs.
i want to get a life.

mata ne..

depressed. ><

mata ne..

so you think i disappointed you?
i am the product of your doings.
so blame yourself.

mata ne..

i dont like it when ppl take it that giving up my time for their group is a natural thing to do.
honestly, right from the start i never wanted to commit.
i am super busy in school.
if i were to commit more than what i do now, i will die.
and you dont care do you.
if there are ppl who are busy, then just take it that they cant be in charge of the many things that you try to entrust to them!
urgh. seriously.

mata ne..

NO ATTENTION SEEKING BEHAVIOUR.
i insist.

mata ne..

1st (:

mata ne..

it is official (:
life will never be the same again.
the best gift from God (:

mata ne..

wah.. i think im more stagnant on this blog recently..
sighs.
life has been pretty good to me, but i just had a bad dream last night which kind of freaked me out.
yeaa its something im very concerned about recently.
sometimes im really scared that i am doing something wrong.
i really lack the wisdom to tell if its my parents that are making a big fuss, or im really very disobedient.
i should ask God to help me, and turn situations around..
i dont know how long this can last. :/

recess week is cominggggggggggg.
yayness!
but i have an exchange with the kyoto university students on monday and the company visit on thurs.
damnnn, im having japanese overdose.
and all the keigo is driving me crazy.
whats with all the 「いただきたいことがございますが」、「～よろしいでしょうか」、「さようでございますか」、「ごぶさたしております」、「申し訳ございません」etc etc.
めんどくさい!
zzzzzzzz.
oh but for once i finished my lab report in advance.
YAYYYY.
hahahaa.
but i have a test on thurs for IA so im gna skip solid states today to study for IA.
forensics lab test is on friday.
forensics is cool mann.
but its soooo gory ><
i saw stuff that i never want to see again.
even tho i would say its a good experience. (:

jiayou-ing..
this sem's time table is actually not that bad. haha.
im quite happy with my timetable, even tho others' timetable are more free ><
and lessons had been quite fun. like forensics and biz jap.

wah sehs this is totally 雑談.
i shall go study for IA le.
ahha.
hopefully the next time i come back would be sometime soon ><

mata ne..

i think the people who truly love me are the ones who

i would say.. that the past 2, 3 days were the most beautiful days of my life so far. haha.
even tho its gna be one year.. but i know it will breeze through.
anything that can withstand the test of time are the most precious, like antiques.
and the longer the test of time, the more valuable.
the story will continue. it will, i know it.

to side track, i must rmb to ballot for my lab module tmr ><

31st, 1st, 2nd.
(:(:(:
super ^^

mata ne..